Monday, March 11, 2013

I like plans


I like plans. I’m aware that it’s impossible to plan every minute of your life, but I need structure in mine.
I’ve been lucky enough to have some amazing experiences happening to me as a result of failed plans, so I’m not crushed or freaked out if in, the ends, things don’t go exactly as I designed, nevertheless I need plans.
Plans are good because they allow me to settle, to get ready for whatever it is that it’s coming and to decide whether or not that’s what I want to do with my life. It’s has always bother me not having a plan, and even if I kept telling myself that it didn’t matter, it would annoy me more than I would ever admit.
And it’s funny how things work, you may search for weeks for an alternative, an option for the future and find nothing that fits your needs, and then simply go out for coffee with a friend for a casual conversation and something comes up.
So I’m glad now, because I really like plans and it seems that they’re starting to appear again. 

Monday, March 04, 2013

Back again


Someone pointed out today that I haven’t been writing as regularly as before, and it’s true, I actually had the same exact though this morning. The thing is I need time to process, to dream, to imagine, and sometimes I get caught up in the real world and don’t manage to write as much as I wish. I really miss it though. This wasn’t something I would think about before, but nowadays, sometimes I wish I could just write for hours, days, without having to think about anything else. No schedules, no routines, no plans. There’re probably three things I can imagine myself doing as a dream job and writing would certainly be one of them. It’s always new and exciting, and fun and challenging, it’s refreshing and encouraging and safe and so reassuring.
I’ve always thought I was a terrible speaker, never knowing what to say or when to say it, but now I realize that maybe we’re not all supposed to be talking, maybe some of us suck at it, so that we can hear what’s going on around us and develop our thoughts about it in writing.

Thanks MP for reminding me to take time to write again and for being a loyal “follower” ;)